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| 1934-2010 RIP Mama |
This is my beautiful mother, she has always played such a strong role in my life. I lost her August of 2010 and my heart still much. Everyday gets a little better than the day before.
When I was young, I remember my mother always being there for me. She was a stay at home mom, I loved coming home to the smell of fresh baked bread. I would help her cook Sunday dinners on Saturday night and my favorite was licking the cake mix bowl.
I would feel so special on Sundays after church when we would sit at the dinner table talking and my mother would mention all the dishes that I helped prepare. Boy, did that make me smile.
After my mother's passing this is what I wrote:
Just A note to say ‘Thanx’
Knowing that someone really appreciate you is great, to hear them say 'Thanx' warm the heart and allows you to do more because you know that you can look forward to hearing 'thanx'
Take my children for example; when I cook something that they really like, they say with excitement 'Thanx mom that was good!' Hearing that from them lets me know that they not only like my cooking, but they appreciate me for making their favorite meal...
I really believe that's what God wants to hear from us. That excitement in our hearts that we are truly thankful, not just for when he does something that we like or want, but to always have a thankful heart.
2 Corinthians 9:11 you will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.
I lost my mother on August 15, 2010, my heart hurts so much and continues to hurt, I cry not because I’m sad or that I have regrets but because I miss hearing her voice and her calling me just to hear my voice… there was a longing for that open line of communication. I am grateful that we had that between us.
When we don’t pray, meditate or fast I really believe in my heart God heart hurts and longs for us, to spend time with us, to enjoy us and to know that we appreciate him, love him and cares about how he feels. God wants exactly what we want, to be loved and feel loved and to be appreciated, for just being him.
Ephesians 6:6 not in the way of service only when eyes are on you, as men-pleasers;
but as servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart;
Patricia Schaller 12/1/2010
My dad and my hero. I would tag along with him everywhere. He owned a lawn service business and as a child I loved going just to see all of the expensive housing and to be ask in by all the rich people. I use to dream that one day I would own one those houses.
I can remember in particular, sitting in the garage with my dad while he tinkered with his lawn mower asking him a thousand question. Why this, I would say, why that?
Sometimes he didn't always have an answer for me, and in those moment he would say "Pat, everything thing is not meant for us to understand. Til this day I still don't understand how a black cow could eat green grass and produce white milk" my answer, why's that? My father would say 'go talk to you mother'
Take my children for example; when I cook something that they really like, they say with excitement 'Thanx mom that was good!' Hearing that from them lets me know that they not only like my cooking, but they appreciate me for making their favorite meal...
I really believe that's what God wants to hear from us. That excitement in our hearts that we are truly thankful, not just for when he does something that we like or want, but to always have a thankful heart.
2 Corinthians 9:11 you will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.
I lost my mother on August 15, 2010, my heart hurts so much and continues to hurt, I cry not because I’m sad or that I have regrets but because I miss hearing her voice and her calling me just to hear my voice… there was a longing for that open line of communication. I am grateful that we had that between us.
When we don’t pray, meditate or fast I really believe in my heart God heart hurts and longs for us, to spend time with us, to enjoy us and to know that we appreciate him, love him and cares about how he feels. God wants exactly what we want, to be loved and feel loved and to be appreciated, for just being him.
Ephesians 6:6 not in the way of service only when eyes are on you, as men-pleasers;
but as servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart;
Patricia Schaller 12/1/2010
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| My day 7/22/1989 |
I can remember in particular, sitting in the garage with my dad while he tinkered with his lawn mower asking him a thousand question. Why this, I would say, why that?
Sometimes he didn't always have an answer for me, and in those moment he would say "Pat, everything thing is not meant for us to understand. Til this day I still don't understand how a black cow could eat green grass and produce white milk" my answer, why's that? My father would say 'go talk to you mother'
That thank you note is beautiful. It sums up everything I feel about my own mother, as well as being a mother. I dread the day that my mom will no longer be here; that I will no longer be able to pick up the phone just to ask her a question, or stop by the house just because. I can't imagine family holidays without her heading up the kitchen.
ReplyDeleteThank you Kathy, yes, not being able to pick up the phone and hear her voice has been the absolute hardest. We use to talk every week, I could pick up the phone and call her @ 3am, and she would always have time for me. She would stay on the phone with me until I felt better. I haven't been home to Florida since 2010, still not ready. My father is there, one of my sisters live with him so I know that he is okay.
DeleteThank you Kathy, for allowing me to share...
This blog is absolutely beautiful. What a wonderful tribute to your mother!
ReplyDeleteThis blog is very touching, especially the note you wrote. I enjoyed reading the time you would spend with you dad as well. Those are some of my best memories with my own parents just cooking in the kitchen or helping my dad out in the garage. Thanks for sharing!
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